Damned and Divine

You gave up the fight,
You left me behind,
All that’s done’s forgiven.
You’ll always be mine,
I know deep inside,
All that’s done’s forgiven.

So in the morning im seeing James for the first time since January 23rd this year… The boyfriend he had a few weeks ago broke up with him by text message apparently >.< So yea, i don’t know what to expect here. I don’t know if  there’s a chance we will reconnect in that way, or if he’s washed his hands of me in that sense completely.

So, im going in with the attitude that if he’s actively seeming like he wants to get back together, then ill go with it just as strongly, if not ill play it cool and hope there’s sparkage like there used to be.

I think im kidding myself though thinking there’s any chance, i don’t think a relationship is what he’s looking for right now, let alone with me =( But yea, i guess we’ll see what happens! I can only hope!

Im meeting him first up in the morning to go with him to get his lip ring removed (cause the locking mechanism on the ring has been stuck for 2 years) and i think he said he’s getting his nose pierced or something, i might get my lip done, it would take some convincing though, i think it looks stupid with curly hair (i’ve tried one of his lip rings on before just sitting on my lip) and i don’t have a decent straightener yet, and i doubt my friends will put any money in so i can buy one for my birthday even thought they said they would, my birthday is on Monday and they haven’t organised it yet haha, oh well, dont want to be too material xD Anyway, after that we’re going for lunch/fake shopping somewhere, i might take the opportunity of having someone with a fashion sense with me to buy some new clothes, not too many though im not swimming in money atm xD

On the note of money, i mentioned that i wanted to try and save to go to the netherlands for the Within Temptation theatre tour in April next year, and James said he’d come with me so id have to work my ass off for a month or two after i finished uni and just keep saving for now as much as i can. Even more extreme i was thinking about deferring next year, saving for the first half of the year then moving to somewhere in Europe for awhile, he said he wanted to do that also, but i guess we’ll see what happens in the coming weeks between us till i make future plans involving him, i hope it all goes well, in either the dating direction or friendly direction (but more so the dating one) =)

Oh and btw! Here’s the new Within Temptation video for their new single “Utopia”. I really love it, i put my atheism aside (its based on an angel xD) for the sake of how beautiful the clip is, and the message it sends.